Its today.
how sad.
how 舍不得。
Tiffany I miss you lar!!

By the time you reached there, it'll be 430am here and 430pm there in Canada.
After 6-1/2 hours on plane, I guess you'll be sleeping.
I hope you'll adapt to the place soon and yeah, enjoy yourself there.
And study hard lar..
I hope there'll be internet connection as soon as you're there!!

I thought I was well prepared for today but it turned out to be so heavy.
Know what? I'm still happy because I did a surprise gift for you!
hahahah!!
Please click Tiffany!!!
hahahah!!

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Labels: cries, love, miss, Tiffany

我不知道我做错了什么
我只是说我很不开心
因为我不能够说出来
我只是不想增加他的负担
我不说只是不想解释那么多
不想让自己跟不开心
但你却质问我
像对我不满一样
为什么你会觉得这样的我才是真正的我呢？
这又是什么意思呢？
为什么你要在我很不开心的时候让我跟不开心呢？
我到底又做了什么让你这么愤怒？
为什么又是我道歉？

你已经不在是我认识的好朋友了吗？
你以前也不是这样的。




发生了什么事?
我不知道。
不准，不准哭。
对不起， 我真的很幼稚。

是对我很失望吗？

Labels: cries, sigh

I just can't stop but to feel worthless.
对不起。

Labels: cries, help me

Went Top 1 KTV with my Ocean Butterfly classmates! Its darn fun! But i think a bit not worth to go in such a big group because I didn't get to sing my list of Zhang Hui Mei's songs!!

I spent:

• $33.40 on cab altogether
• $31.50 on dinner
• $12.70 on ice cream

Why am I always with abundance when I don't feel well?
Such a waste of money
but I can't stop spending.

Labels: cries, help me, love, Ocean Butterfly, singing, vent

I'm super speechless because there's so much things that's in my heart. There's just so many areas that I saw. There's just so many not ordinary experiences.

I can't even be truthful to myself, what's more to you.

Lord, I'm sorry.
I know that I have to go through this in order for you to use me.
Take all of me.

I SURRENDER ALL

TRUE WORSHIPPER Key: E

Worship

THANK YOU FOR THE CROSS THAT YOU HAVE PAID FOR ALL MY SINS YOU'VE SACRIFICED YOURSELF I AM NOTHING LORD WITHOUT YOUR GRACE YOU WERE THERE TO LIFT ME WHEN I FAILED AS I LIFT MY HANDS POUR YOUR MERCY O GOD I'M LONGING FOR YOUR PRESENCE NOW AS I LIFT MY HANDS POUR YOUR MERCY O GOD I'M LONGING FOR YOUR PRESENCE NOW I SURRENDER ALL AND I WILL FOLLOW YOU I SURRENDER ALL AND BRING MY LIFE TO YOU I SURRENDER ALL AND LIVE MY LIFE FOR YOU I SURRENDER ALL, I SURRENDER ALL (TO YOU JESUS)

Labels: cries, feared, help me, prayer, sigh

Today's paper was terrible! Really terrible!
Tomorrow is POA. argh!!! MCQ is a killer.
sigh ...

Labels: cries, daily, exams, feared, study

I really don't know how long can I last. Exams have really been stressful plus many many other things. God, I do not want to lead a simple life but I really don't know what else I can do. After some time, i really can't find my heart anymore. Bitterness just begin to develop within me. Bitter about exams, about people, about friends, about myself, about cg, about God, about school, about studies, about everything.
I can't, I can't do well in anything. I can only face it myself.

And I just hope my insomnia stop tonight.

Labels: cries, help me, prayer, sigh, Spiritual

I don't. I don't.
I shouldn't. I shouldn't.
I mustn't. I mustn't.
I used to be able to control my emotions and feelings alot.
Looks like, I'm being over sensitive recently.
Stop it. Stop it.
Oh God, take it away.
You know I can't handle it.
It makes me cry to think of it. Though its quite silly.

Labels: church, cries, feared, help me, roberted, strange, wierd

don't shout at me.
when you chose to leave that place, you have lost a friend.
no matter what you do, doesn't concern me.
and stop telling me anything, I'm really not interested at all.
do you think you can resolve this easily?
just keep quiet if you don't know and don't ask anything!

Labels: cries, daily, emo, vent

Sighs ...
Is it ok if you would stop asking me to adjust or change for some people?
Right or not right, I really don't know.
But I really don't like it.
我不想讲是谁对或不对.
但我觉得应该一件事归一件事.
如果她有这钟决定, 我又有什么办法呢?
Perhaps, you should give me more time?

No regrets, More! More! More!

Today is my first lesson at Ocean Butterfly Music forest!
I learnt about some breathing technics.
I made the best choice in taking up this Vocal Course!

• My dream is one step closer
• I'm more more more motivated
• I meet more more more friends
• I have more more more KTV companion (I hope they would go? hee ...)
• I ought to improve more more more
• With that qualification, I can earn more more more

Hahahaha!!!!! more! more! more!

Labels: cries, emo, Ocean Butterfly, rants

Alright, one last post about it.

Well, if you think that some things don't have to tell me, I'm fine.
But you lied when I ask.
You told some others, not me.
And well, I just don't understand what's about being so secretive.

You used to pissed me off like nobody does.
Alot of times, I tell myself "ok, enough. I'm not gonna care."
But afterthat I'll tell myself "If I don't care, who will care?"
After 1 year, there were so many times I wanted to give, but I didn't.
Because I really treat you as a friend
Because I really care.

But this time, I really don't know what to say.
You don't want to explain anything to me
You don't want to reply my messages
(Yet, you are able to reply others)

I ever said if you want to lie, make sure I don't know.
Are you not used to me?
Or too used to me?

What does sorry mean?

Labels: cries, emo, friends, help me

Well, I won't let my new year be an unpleasant one this year!
Not because of you.
I made up my mind to move on.
Go ahead with what you want then.
I won't interfere.
Not any thing.

If you're not appreciative
then get lost.
If you think I have so much time to be a busybody
then shut up and stop complaining.
If you don't treat me like how a friend should be
then why should I?

And please shut up if you don't know any thing!
How much do you understand?!

Labels: cries, emo, friends, help me, pissed

What?
How?
When?
Where?
I know who ... Jesus

haiz ...
I hope I don't know anything about it.

Labels: cries, emo, help me

I please God, not man
Jesus is my purpose, not man.
God gives me hope, not man
Seed will be multiplied by God, not man.
God will restore me, not man.
God gives me strength, not man.

Do not give up. Do not give up.
"And blessed is he who is not offended because of Me."

Labels: cries, emo, revelation, Spiritual