SHYRLYN :D
I am crazily doing stupid stuff.
I have high pitch laughter.
I can cry in 10sec.
I have a man character.
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God is still here with me (((:
Monday, October 26, 200903:22
sorry. know i say i will blog regularly but i didn't. its like, too long never blog and i don't really have the habit to even visit my blog. hahahaha! well, i shall post something which i long wanted to but had no courage to. its nearing nov and i have left church nearly a year. since then, i knew my life would be different and simplest thing like singing on stage which i used to think have became one of my fear. i became so unfamiliar and faithless in the things i used to have most confidence. and things in many areas just change. but i accepted this life because i made this decision. and this means i kind of feel how non-believers feel they meet christians. but i do feel unjustified for church and some good believers. when we meet some 'bad christian', we automatically relate them to church and i often hear people say "he still say he goes to church". so if this person is a muslim, do you say "he still say he goes to mosque?" how should i put it? we are human beings and we are imperfect. the character and personality of a person is determined by its background and most importantly himself. the church can teach the best values and principles but it still depend on the person himself whether he adopt them. and i hear people negative comments about christians and church. i do feel a little unjustified but i know certain things, we have to experience it before we understand it. and thats the reason why i refuse to argue or debate in such topic. but sometimes i don't understand why is it so unfair when is comes to church(not other religion). but to think about it, if the world can be fair, then Jesus won't be crucified on the cross. i'm not saying i'm perfect and i don't give negative comments about christians. i know and i do admit that i do gossip or even criticise them. but i'm against the person. or rather the particular issue that happened. i don't blame it on one's church or religion. what's more i understand so much about this religion. I believe in God because i have knowledge in it and i experienced it. Christianity is a relationship with God. It is not somebody physical that you can see nor touch. But you can feel and hear Him. throughout the pass one year, i know God is still with me, always reminding me that He's there in a more obvious and direct way than before. and i'm saying this because i experience it myself. its more true having someone by my side. of course, you can choose to believe someone who doesn't go to church. if you never been to church then how well do you know about them I certainly love God. miss His presence. and the reason why i refuse to go to church because probably i just know that i will stay there and don't bear to leave? then why leave? i have no idea. I'm just not ready to face all these yet. but i can only say, to stay with someone you love is easier or to leave someone you love is easier? maybe i'm just someone who can only learn the hard way? |
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Last day... must come!!!
Sunday, November 23, 200805:17
Yesterday, Pastor Benny was really awesome awesome!!!!! ahhhh!!! I'm so loving Asia Conference!!! i'm having new motivations, new revelations, new visions, new mindset. more testimonies. yes! but its ending tomorrow!!!! i'm so gonna miss it. I'm only left with an hour to sleep..... but i'm still gonna nap for awhile... and probably coffee and redbull later?hahahha!!! I did not take photo the past few days.... wasted.. i was so so dressed up with makeup and hair done. ok!! i will take alot alot of photos later to amend for the past few days.. hahaha!!! |
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Audition for Showtime
Thursday, October 09, 200803:21
Today its the day ... Its SHOWTIME I took part in a duet with Eunice We sang Yuan Dian I thought we did pretty okay no doubt having sore throat and block nose at least the judges clapped. (without clapping for others i heard) hahaha But still, I sounded rather nasal because of my block nose Eunice was a little flat we're kind of lack of interaction because she don't want to look at me hahaha! and not forgetting Nervous ..... er, actually not very applicable to me because I was really not very nervous this time I thought I should just do my best in what I've practice. Tanya once said, When you're on stage, you must think that you are the best singer Everyone is there to listen to you. But when you're off the stage, you must think that you're the lousiest in order to improve yourself to the maximum. Which is very effective to me in overcoming the stress and nervousness on stage. So no matter what is the outcome ... I am still proud of the both of us at least we take the step to take part. And I've done my best. Its definitely an experience to sing infront of ALISON, BRO POH AND WEE LEE hahaha! well, will keep you guys posted in the results. woohoo~ Labels: church, competition, singing |
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It won't be a long one.
Thursday, September 11, 200801:15
hmm, yeah. Tuesday supposed to go for choir prac it was canceled due to the funeral service for Nicole Lai. well, supposed to go down to sing but had exams.
Its very sad to see people around passing on at a young age especially she is with her daughter who is so young. She has a great voice and I hope her daughter, carmen will fulfill her passion with the talent. Learn to express more love to the people around you before its too late. |
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Stable career VS Passion?
Monday, July 14, 200814:20
Yesterday was a long long day. was scare awake at 10am. ahhaha. I was supposed to reach church at 11am . Rushed like hell and thankfully I was only 10mins late. wahhahha.
How I wish I have a teleport. Then I don't have to always waste time waiting for cabs. hahah. okay, i think the atmosphere of both service 1 and service 4 was great. I begin to really enjoy in choir. hahaha. There's just a huge sense of satisfactory when people come and tell me that the atmosphere was great. hahah!! Had a talk with Veracia on Sat. She said that before she went poly, she thought that she wanted a normal diploma to secure herself so she took IT in poly. To her, you don't need any cert in drama so she did not pursue a course that is related to drama. she planned that after poly, work for 2 years and off she go to pursue drama. She's out of poly and now she just happen to be a marketing manager and holds a share in a company. So the question is how can she give up the achievements after 2 years in her company and pursue her passion? So my question is should I pursue a music related qualification? or should I take up a normal course to secure myself? A: take up music related course (Passion) B: take up a normal course (preferbly business related, Note: its a course i'm interested in) A: you should pursue your passion B: you should take a normal course and take up part-time class for music A: take that normal course for what? B: to secure yourself. its unrealistic to study music in Singapore A: But its my passion. Don't be so kia si lar B: its not kia si. its survival skills A: yeah, its kia si what. B: but you still got to survive. what can you do with a music related qulification? how much can you earn? A: It doesn't really matter. Its my passion. if i take up a normal course, no matter what I'll be half-hearted because i know one day I'm gonna leave this aspect. but if i take up a music related course, I'll be left with no choice but to work very very hard. Let's say I'm not half hearted in the normal course, i graduate and work in that aspect. then how on earth am I gonna get into the music line? and how long will that take? B: What if you fail even if you work very hard? Since its your passion, i'm sure you're willing to wait right? If you don't have a stable job, stable salary, how are you gonna pursue your passion? A: At least I've tried. Even if at the end of the day I fail, I've tried my best. Isn't it a blessing to have the courage to pursue your dream? I believe even if I can't achieve what I really want to, I will still remain in this line which I'm sure I'll love it. Yes, money is a very important issue. But there's a will there's a way. Money is never a worry for me. Can you guarantee that the normal course can secure me with a good paid job? B: Because you're young. you don't know how important and how hard money is earned. I can't guarantee but at least the chance is higher than music stuff. A: Yeah, I'm young. That's why i can afford to pursue the dream. I can always start over again. This is that kind of debate I always do. with who? hahah.. Probably my left brain with my right brain. Or rather my mind with my heart. haha. Yeah myself. I would probably think of every possible scenario. All possible scenarios are at the extreme. I just wonder why Singaporean cannot accept art? Risky? What about faith in God? To all faithful readers, please tell me do you agree with A or B. comment about it if you have a different view. hahaha! |
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Big Bang Big Bang!
Thursday, June 19, 200802:34
I so love the camp! First, we wake up at 530am every morning before the camp to pray. For friends, for logistics, for weather, for members, for cg, for zone, for church, for everything. We prayed so much and just a few days before the camp, we have 0 friends who are coming. As we continue to press in to God, He showed us ways and opened doors. During the camp, we have 2 friends, Kewei and Kelvin. Kewei is Kexin's younger brother which is also my student. He is 11 years old this year. He's so well taken care of because he's like the 宝贝 among us. The brothers piggy-back him, carried his bag for him, give up the whole bed to him, talk to him, play(chopstick) with him. and found himself a few new friends like jj and yerui. hahah! Even at the end of the camp, his bag was full of titbits that are given by all of us. hahah. Got to thank the guys for taking care of him so well, showing love and care if not we will lose our ultimate purpose of the camp. Yea, and the most important thing is that HE RECEIVED SALVATION! Kelvin is Priscillia's friend. He was super spontaneous when we are playing games. He never once complain that its tiring or even pull a long face that shows his un-interest. He was so involved and enthusiastic. I'm sure he enjoyed himself and found more friendship in our cg. Although he didn't respond, he agreed to come for cg and service every. This is a good start. Thanks, guys for putting the effort to engage him. I feel like after the camp our cg become more reactive. Why reactive? In the reactivity series, magnesium, aluminum, zinc and iron are metals that are less reactive which has weak bonds whereas potassium, sodium and calcium are very reactive metals and has very strong bonds. So we're like the less reactive metals in the past which has weak bonds but now, we are the very reactive metals that has strong bonds. Although its just 3 days 2 nights, God opened doors and did miracles. For example, we had been praying for good weather as the weather forecast predicted that there will be thunder storm.God indeed answered our prayers because the camp was very successful and we're not affected by any bad weather. Praise the Lord! During the first night, although all of us are so worn out, we still came together to pray in front of the bbq pit. I was so tired as I didn't sleep for few days before the camp. Thank God for the strength! As I prayer walked that day, God began to speak to me about healing. And my faith suddenly raised up and began to pray for the sick. I prayed for Queen and true enough, she got back her voice the next day. I also feel that God is beginning to use me in the area of healing. I suddenly have the burden to want to pray for Nicole for healing. If you see it, you'll have it. Happy Birthday to me! Went KTV just now with Royston, Yikang and Regina. It was so fun as we used the HALL. hahah! And now, I feel that my sore throat is coming back. Better drink more honey and sea coconut. hahah! Thanks guys for the 12am sharp warm-but-not-very-familiar-Happy Birth(s) day! ahahah! Speacial thanks to: Wanting Julie Girlfriend-Veracia Kewei Peter Karen Derek Regina For the heartfelt sms wishes! This Sunday, more to come! hahahha!!! Please also take note that this Sunday(22 June) has been changed to 1130am at Toa Payoh Mrt. Starts from 12pm - 6pm. and do not come empty handed... oops! hahaha! kidding ah... As long as you come in person, I appreciate it! hhaha! See you there! Labels: beauty, birthday, blessed, cg, church, events, Ocean Butterfly, prayer, singing |
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Empowered
Sunday, May 04, 200800:50
Had an awesome and powerful prayer meeting so as a wonderful service. Really empowered. Oh Lord, thank you for consistently reminding me of the vision you gave. I really believe it with the power of God. Holy Spirit, thank you for guiding me throughout. Being ekballo or apostello, it doesn't matter for You are with me. Amen.
Some pictures on our way home to kill boredom! Seth's scary finger! OMG! Its turning black now.  Best mummy retard face award!! hahaha  I really wonder what she's doing.  mummy-daughter retard face!  I roar! she don't seemed to be afraid. hahaha!  Nicole said we have same face, do we?  I think we should get best partners ok! always spoiling pictures! hahah!  Shepherd and sheep. She's our magical goddess! hahhahah!  |
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Blessed!
Wednesday, April 23, 200818:41
Hi guys, I'm back. Really sorry for not updating due to the time table in the previous post. Ya I know its been more than a week. Well, have been studying everyday as my exams are starting next week. Went for Dr Kim's on sunday. It was really powerful. It was really an impartation. She preached a very simple message on Holy Spirit but right after her message, I felt the pressence so strong in the midst of us. The pressence was so tangible and tears kept flowing then God began to say "I will give you strength and power in all things". Wah, Thank you Jesus!! He indeed know my hearts desire. That night when I was doing my quiet time, I received a revelation 1 Peter 5 : 6 - 11 Yesterday, I went for choir practice and belle shared a word which is exactly my revelation. As you humble ourselves and put God first, when He sees you, He'll be so pleased and He'll say "WOW". When you lift up your burdens and prayers, He'll answer them. You got to constantly know the voice of the Lord. No matter what tribulations you experience, you must know that Jesus Christ had experienced it, yet without sin and you are rooted deep in the water. You got to be hungry and do not feel satisfied easily in knowing God. As you are closer to Him, He will then reveal things to you. Alot of times we believe in every other people but not ourselves. We must not let the roaring lion come and cause us to doubt ourselves. Labels: blessed, church, revelation, Spiritual |
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New Scedule
Sunday, April 13, 200820:11
 My new study plan!! yeah! 34hours/week ... hahahah. crazy!! Yeah, and Pastor preached about prayer yesterday. I must discipline myself, expand my prayer life ... Labels: church, management, prayer, Spiritual, study |
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You shouldn't sleep too much hence, you'd die earlier
Saturday, April 05, 200823:34
Wow, truely blessed by Pst Tan's message - Thinking with Excellence
One of the things he said that left a deep impression was about Time management. Time = the occurance of events. Time Management = Events Management. Survey from some medical doctors from America said that the average time one person should sleep is 6.5 hours per day and there's no reason you should sleep more. Survey showed that there's an increase of death rate of people who sleep more than 8 hours a day or less than 4 hours a day and decreased in death rate of people who sleep 6 - 7 hours per day. Labels: church, management, motivation, Spiritual |
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Procratination VS Decisiveness
Friday, April 04, 200823:04
The things I always procratinate:
The things that i am decisive:
when i was posting the previous post, it kinda reminded me of a friend. Well, I don't give up easily but some people just have some "none of your business", "this is what I want" attitude that left me no choice. I am always loyal to friends as you can see - i put friendships at stake which i seldom see people doing that. hahahaha!!! Well, the reason is I can't accept seeing my friends walking in a wrong path. People tell me but this is what they want, let them be then. I'll let you be if its a rational decision right? hahaha. But if its not, unless you're not my friend, I'll let you be. Labels: beauty, church, friends, motivation, Random |
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Monday, March 31, 200823:37
I don't. I don't.
I shouldn't. I shouldn't. I mustn't. I mustn't. I used to be able to control my emotions and feelings alot. Looks like, I'm being over sensitive recently. Stop it. Stop it. Oh God, take it away. You know I can't handle it. It makes me cry to think of it. Though its quite silly. Labels: church, cries, feared, help me, roberted, strange, wierd |
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Greatest Production
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        Yeah!                   Our Geeko MC. hahah  Tom: Dicky's best friend  Famous SHR Vocalist. I seriously do not know why is it SHR. hahaha     Dicky's mummy           Dicky Orh Pi Sai: Promoter  Mr Low: Manager of Best Donkey        Yeah! Thank me Veracia!  looks like I'm shooting for some cosmetic ad. haha   I love this! thanks Kenneth! for a moment i thought what is that black thing at the side. Later I realized its my hair! hahahha.  Dicky's Dad - passed away.                    MJ Zone - You are Special! This is the ever greatest drama production I've done. It's so tiring, stressed up but worth it! It was indeed a success! We went to taka - Kino, mos burger after that. |
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