Today, is kinda long day.

Woke up early morning, as he head to work, me returning home to remind my mum of myself. I think she has forgotten her daughter because as usual, I'm always so occupied by my own stuff. Worse still, I think I'm really exhausted due to the previous job. Physically and mentally straining because I have to keep reminding myself to stay really strong and keep the drive going until it dies. And you know when anything start to deteriorate, you need to do something about it to not let it worsen. I thought I was so super strong, wonder woman, fly here fly there could take all these but I realised, I needed to break long ago. You can't just keep pushing yourself.

- yup, this realisation came to me after the interview this morning.

after interview, went back home again for lunch and laze around till evening and I head over to boon lay to meet my gf and my son!!! wahahaha... I had a great time playing him and with him. He kept smiling at my high pitch annoying noises. no, actually I kept talking to him in his language! hehehe!

At night, head to OB, meet the 3bbbold2+1appleiphone3g...

eat chill and talk cock. When we were leaving, we even craped for 30mins outside cine..

how REEEEEtarded.. hahahha

ok, but its great meeting them.

and back home. my home.

Packed abit of stuff because tomorrow or rather today is friday and I won't be coming home till monday morn.

and then, browse abit of net and read a few emo blogs.

I just feel that, life is more than just love, marriage, money and work.

I got to agree that they are the prime things people look at and vex about.

I seriously have to admit that I'm in this category of love money work too.

Certain group of friends, can only play. Certain group of them can talk. Certain group of friend can talk and relate. Certain group of friend can talk can relate and respected.

I really want to give up talking about this but I guess, I can't change. I'm just more concern about friends and I'm not that kind of person that can "let them be" "mind my own business"... To me, as a friend, even if I know you don't like to listen, I still have to say my piece even when you long already understood this, even you have made your decisions clear. But rest assured, you still have my blessings. I'm not thinking that it cannot work out for you guys. However, as a friend, I respected you due to your passion, your drive and the amount of hardwork you commit in your career. I know how tough is your work already. It'll just be another challenging task for you to bear.. which i think its something worth if its really something you want but you really don't have to do that. Plenty of alternatives but no idea why you taking the hardest way.

It was good reminiscing the good old days and laugh about what I used to blog.

I blogged so often in the past and often has interesting thoughts.

and I thought in the past,

I had so much confidence,

I was so intellectual,

I was so clear and certain of what I want,

I planned so much,

I was so motivated and motivates others,

I was so determined and persistent of what I want,

and what happened to me now?

hahahah!

and I realised, I used to sleep 4 hours a day..

now, 12 hours a day..

like, i think i will die young cause i'm so unhealthy.

hahaha..

oh, and i also realised I used much better English in the past.

Maybe because there's no more comprehension to do..

hahaha!

Ok, since its been damn long since i blogged,

I promise a longer post today..

I was reading some old post I posted in 2007...

Wow, this is funny so i decided to repost this...

ahahahah!

A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.

A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.

A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.

A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more willing to die.

To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.

To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.

A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.

A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.

A woman has the last word in any argument.

Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, "You're next." They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.

Generally,

Smart woman + Dumb woman = Smarter women

Smart man + Dumb man = Dumb-er men

But men always think that they're smart.

The problem is, dumb people thinks they're smart

whereas smart people are always eager to learn.

And eventually there'll be an intelligence disparity.

Smart become smarter, dumb become dumb-er.

hhahaha.

I hope I don't offend anyone though.

I realised alot of my recent post states how much I changed.

Yeah, I don't understand why I changed so much too..

Like, I became can't be bothered with most stuff.

Like, I take everything easily when i used to take everything seriously..

Like, I became so so lazy compare to the past.

and I thought we should keep improving but why do I think that life was better?

why do I feel that my values and beliefs was better?

why do I start feeling bad about myself?

but I have no idea how to change..

hahahah..

because there is no motivation in everything...

and then I get emo every now and then but refuse to admit.

Maybe I should start doing some serious stuff and change the circle of friends.

Perhaps, I'm just way too stagnant..

and, walking is good!

walking changes my mood.

walking makes me happy.

walking makes me refreshed.

walking makes me healthy.

I walked 3.3km from Cine back home..

How cool!~

woohoo ~

just wanted to blog for the momentum.

Since I haven't been blogging for like long long time.

Well, I've dl-ed the new app on BB.. as you can see below..

so, I can blog with my berry now!

hmm, please note that berry also can whatsapp!

so I'm on whatsapp! who say only apple can?

hahahaha!

Ok, I'm just back from vocals today after that mac..

and played murderer till frigging 230am~

sounds retarded..

But its fun!

because you totally can see the way people react.

who is the higher EQ ones.

Who play mind games better.

and I really feel like saying..

I will do everything I can for your sake.

I want to blog because I'm too bored.
I'm getting a bit emo because i see Winter(my male rabbit) emo.
he has been separated from Summer(my female Rabbit)
even though their cage is only side by side and they see each other every second
hahaha.
Initially I thought Winter will be very happy because he always jump around in the small cage.
now, I got him a new big cage. he emo.

And, I'm giving away Summer and her 2 little bunnies a few days later.
omg, I'm gonna be so sad. so is Winter.
We're gonna miss them so much.
I shall bring my Winter go visit them 2 weeks later.
Wheee!~

Ok, enough of my rabbits.
Recently, I've been thinking about friends.
In the past, people used to put friends first.
but i realised the world has changed a lot.
male and female must have equality
female does what male are doing.
female getting possessively stupid.

I may have a lot of friends.
but all of them(gfs) really throw me aside when they're attached.
I'm not being jealous or what.
I understand that you all have more commitments now.
but I already stop receiving phone calls from them every now and then.
Like i used to.

especially from the one... she should know.
haven't I been understanding enough?
sometimes i think i shouldn't bear grudges with her.
because she's different.. in some way.
but, why would i talk in this manner if it only happen the first time?
even if nothing happened, i believe you'll still forget to call me.
i admit that you are very understanding at most times.
like, you know i'm busy and stuff..

you called me, talked to me.. in times of needs.
when you had troubles.
even in the middle of the night.
have i ignored you for once?
i may not have important things to share..
but it seems to me that you are doing so well now,
you have someone with you already.
so you don't need to call me anymore?
you don't even seem to be interested in anything about me.
i don't know what type of friend you call this.
no time to meet me, fine.
don't bother to call me, fine.
get so particular about the way i talk.
you know me first day?

my tone became like that basically because.
if it were in the past, you will call me straight and tell me your worries.
and now, you totally forget to call me even when i ask you to.
i was relax because i didn't know you were so affected.
i thought it was quite normal for pregnant woman to have disorders here and there.
don't have to scold me vulgarity right?
and i wasn't being sarcastic when i said sorry.
then you became so sensitive.
if your very good friend that know you for so long is complaining about this.
its time you reflect.
and you can continue to be the way like this.
go stick to the kid's father
because you will lose a friend.
I promise.

situations like that guy don't allow you to talk to me..
i was understanding to you right?

apparently, now its your choice that you don't even bother.
then please change our relationship status on FB.

I may not have very good temper.
I may not have very good attitude.
but I've never leave my friend alone in times of trouble.
please don't ever complain when i start having my own commitments too.

and woohoo,
i ended my post with rain!
rain rain please don't stop
i am gonna sleep with you!
hahahaha!

After so long, I'm coming back blogging.
I hope I'll update often though.
hahaha!
but i realised blogging is already not an IN thing these days.
blogs are getting quite dead recently.
probably the result of people getting more active with FB?
hahaha!

Throughout these period when i didn't blog, i think i've changed quite a lot.
I become less stubborn, less principles.
I think i used to be very strong headed and lots of philosophy behind everything i do.
but maybe as i grow older, i realised this is life.
why are you so particular about everything when you know you can't change anything?
I still stand strong in my beliefs but i become less particular about minor details.
especially when people don't agree with me.
I start to really accept the things people say.
I do lesser self reflection.
because i think, its good to improve yourself,
but improving doesn't mean you lose yourself.
your character and personality.

therefore i blog lesser to complain and vent my anger.
hahhaha!

its been some time since i blog anyway..
think the past few posts all very emo..
i shall stop posting emo stuffs.
hahahaha!

hmm, recently i found a new hobby.
I walked home from bugis the other day.
and walked back from outram just now.
it feels really good to walk home.
hahaha!
i haven't been really spending on transport for your info. wahahaha!
I spent 1 hour from bugis.. then as i walk, i just talked on phone.
the thing is, i had very good sleep that night.
I believe the same to day for the half an hour walk.
as i walked home, i thought alot.
so i was emo-ing about some stuffs and i reached home.
hmm, but there a great sense of satisfaction after i walk though.

shifting to bukit merah is so right.
I become more healthy because i always walk.
I'll slim down because there is nothing to munch at night.
and i tend to drink milk everyday because of the convenience.
I drink lots of water here too.

at home, i seldom drink water and exercise because i have all sorts of entertainment.
i saw a documentary the other day saying that watching tv will gain weight.
which i think its true..
i have cable tv at home.
so i'll watch whole day and don't even walk 100steps a day.
i will lie there and watch till morning?
then i'll tend to grab stuff to munch.
if not i'll cook instant noodles.
its not like i can't cook here.
but its just more troublesome because we're using stove in this house.
whereas at my house, we use induction cooker.
which means, i take only 3 mins to cook my instant noodles.
here, i probably take 10mins or more. because the water take very long to boil.
another thing is that i'm so super lazy to wash..
(i can throw at basin and let my mother wash at home.. oops)
wahhahaha

which means i should stay here for good.
because i'll become healthier here.
whahaha!

I am just feeling reluctant.
to blog, to talk, to think, to eat, to sleep.
hahahah!
ok, sound super retarded.

tomorrow is friday again.
and another week past.
i just received my timetable.
and it super slack!!!
i mean slack!
I go to school 3 hours a day, 5 days a week.
anybody has part time job to intro?
i want long term ones.
so i can work during school term.
if not i'll be darn sian and darn broke.

I was reading my past entries from previous years.
and i thought, actually the stuff i used to blog are quite interesting.
especially when it comes to criticizing people.
i actually burst out laughing to myself at McDonald's.
how retarded.
i supposed to be criticizing people but the content is totally funny.

these two days are just bored bored.
interviews and trainings and whatever.
I'm not sure whether this line suits me.
i'm not sure whether i'm in the right path.
i don't wanna waste time.
but when i was about to give up, its just something that tell me give it a try.
no harm anyway.
but, with the time i could do other things right?
no, more like i'll be sleeping at home.
I tried sharing with 2 friends.
but both discouraged me.
and i'm not gonna reveal what i'm doing unless i achieve something.
but apparently, i need alot of discernment in this.
and most people are skeptical about this.
ME TOO....
people only tell me not to waste time in this.
yes, i do agree.
but, there's alot of what ifs inside me.
to find out the answer, i have to experience it myself.
MYSELF.
what people see or they say they see or they say their friends see or they say their friend say they see or their friend's friend see or their friend's friend say they see.. etc ...
may not be true.

so i shall go and sleep now and wake up earlier tomorrow go get down with it!

Life's getting more and more dull each day.
and i've been sleeping most of the time.
i sleep, wake up, eat, watch tv, play computer.
and this routine continues.
if this continues, life's gonna be dead.
and i already feel like i'm dying.
full of boredom, no existence, no fulfillment, no achievement, no satisfaction, no commitment.
how possible can i live a life like this?

i wonder how am i able to adapt to my upcoming hectic schedule
i better enjoy now.
hahahahaha!

Finally, I'm back.
Why?
cause I'm too bored. so I wanna blog.

Ok, first of all I think the event yesterday was great!
I hope we'll have more events like this! YAY!!

I was watching this Korean documentary about obsessed kids in korea.
And they said, fat cells will only grow and will not die.
So i was wondering how we burn fats?
Many of us think that fats grow only at visible parts.
But apparently, fats grow even in our body.
When we exercise, the fats we burn are the fats right under our skin which is the visible parts. but the fats inside our body are the fats that we can't see and burn.

The documentary talks about why korean kids a so fat. and result was kid watch tv too much, play computer too much. Hence, they exercise lesser and munch titbits more often. Before 20th century, there were alot of death due to lack of nutritient. but since 20th century, people suffer from illness due to obesity and gradually death.

Are we having too good life? that people die of eating too much? Korean kids and in fact kids in many places are suffering from diseases due to obesity which only affected middle aged and above in the past but now, the kids are commonly affected.
When i come about to know that i was a big baby that weigh 4kg (avg baby weigh 3.5kg), i thought i was lucky because i ran around at the playground everyday when i was young. and i was not overweight before even when i eat 5 meals a day. wahahaha!

So what now?
no. no more weight gaining plan.
i shall proceed with my diet plan instead.
i don't wanna suffer from such diseases when i die.
WAHAHAHA!

Shyrlyn is bored again.
Shyrlyn is broke again.
Shyrlyn is being random again.
Shyrlyn indecisive upon which song to choose again.
Shyrlyn is thinking of him again.
Shyrlyn is pissed again.
Shyrlyn is feeling frustrated again.
Shyrlyn is having insomnia again.
Shyrlyn is gaining weight again.
Shyrlyn is having the craze to buy heels again.
Shyrlyn is craving for potatoes again.
Shyrlyn is bewildered again.
Shyrlyn is getting impatient again.
Shyrlyn is getting insensible again.
Shyrlyn is being bad-tempered again.
Shyrlyn is getting wilful again.


Shyrlyn is here again.

HAHAHAHA...

What's with those guys who drive their SECOND hand car and goes around hooking up girls?
Not all girls are superficial, materialistic, pratical or whatever you name it.
The main thing is, some guys out there has the cheek to create false stories of anything and everything. Not only they try to lift up their status. They tries so hard to put their own long-termed friends down just because he's jealous. Even giving the fact that he's rich.
Hello, so what if you're rich? A moment of investments would not last you for long. Being so so proud will just bring your downfall. Even if you're rich, that doesn't give you the right to put your friend down. that doesn't give you the right to 挑拨离间！

Come on, you can pay for all the bills, open so many bottles, buying so many brandeds to show off your money and status. That still doesn't give you the right to treat other "lower status" people as dog.
You should just bloody wake up your idea because you won't know when you'll die out of being proud. Stop acting like a king as if everybody in the worls has to listen to you.
You're just rich out of some short-term investment. And you'll lose all your money one fine day to your pride, status, girls and your brandeds.

In this era, there's no longer such thing as different classes of status. So don't act like you're from a different class when you're not!

I'm bored I'm bored I'm bored.

I'm so bored in office.

I'm so gonna die of liver failure soon.

hahahah.

or maybe gastric cancer.

siao...

hahah.

I'm sick I'm sick I'm sick again.
so i'm staying at home on a wed night.
hmmm, healthy life right.
yes!

Anyway, I so hate last wed.
so its good to stay at home today.

I'm having fever!
I lost my voice!
All thanks to ah soon!
hahaha!

Some evil people are asking me to go K at this state.
so bad so bad so bad.
You know who you are!
no matter what, I'm still your lucky star and your benefactor!
you better becareful!
wahahahahah!

Talking about that day...
I hit my leg against heartbroker's bedframe..
and the bruise is still here!
OMG!!
Its freaking big and ugly now!
ASS

wahahaha!
its fact that i love to laugh
be it the laughter is real or fake.
hahahahaha!~

I can't stand it anymore anymore

can't stand it when i can't online every night!!!

hahaahha..

so i've been hanging out almost everyday.

I'm not gonna rant about where i go and what i do.

well well.. I can't stand it anymore because i haven't been blogging for ages.

and obviously, i think its dying without me knowing.

9 days after 2009

Well, I haven't done up my new year resolution.

So what now.

ahhhh...

2009 will be a slow year.

Economy slowwwww...

My mind is blocked now.

I shall do my resolution next week.

hahaha.

Stop procratinating!

I have so many photos i want to post for Steamboat @ regina's house.

But, I'm so lazy.

I should give it a miss.

TGIF!!!

Yay!!

Today is vocal exammmmm ...

/grrr

I've always wanted to sign up nuffnung.
But i'm so lazy to do it.
hahah!

Ok, finally I'm done doing it.

hmmm, if you noticed that someone actually asked me about that IP...
Its that Stupid-proud-ass-Dan.
Is he spamming again?
I so want to see what "she" spam again.
wahahah!

so so... i haven't been home since wed.
and i'm still at regina's house.
OMG...
I want to go home!
hahaha!

shall post up photos for friday sooon..
wahaha!

I seriously don't dare to record myself and upload on my blog.

I seriously don't dare and don't think i'm born beautiful

I seriously don't think people will want to know me online

I just have too many obscene photos(ugly snap shots)

Ok, but that's not the point...


The point is...

A normal person can be so super optimistic that she probably twist facts.
She really think so highly of herself ...
Well, so I understand why there is always no improvements in people like this.
Its self-indulgence.
hahahha!
She just indulge in herself so much that she thinks others are lousy...
no no .. there is one person. only him. (you know who)
hahaha

Lastly, I don't like COPYCATS!

I'm bored

I'm hungry

I'm sick

Is there anything worse than this?

I'm sick and I have to work.

I'm hungry but can't eat.

I'm bored and I can't talk!!!

I having sore throat and how can I sing?

hahahha!

I'm sick probably because I haven't been sleeping enough.

Haven't been drinking enough water in this cold and dry container office.

Been eating Unhealthy food like potato chips and deep fried food.

I slept at 4am on sunday and 5am last night...

Ate big packets of potatochips almost everyday since last week...

hahaha

but i got to say, Its Delicious.

My fingers are also peeling due to the barred chords...

AHHHH...

Later, if i can make it....

It will be my show.

my time.

my audition.

Even if I don't get in, I must leave a deep impression with the judges!

My goal!

I'm the best.

NOW NOW... GASTRIC CALLING FOR HELP!!!!

AHHHH!!
Where's my life....
I can't online
I can't blog!!!
Face gmail in office
face gmail at home
bake bake bake

nothing else.
just plain busy....

early morning... just can't blog much..
but just want to keep my blog alive?
hahhaha

I'm having Impressario audition tonight!!!

I nearly post on wrong blog as I have like 3 blogs under my account...
going to have another one soon.
wahahaha

I finally finish doing my log cake. wahahaha!
Guinea pigs tomorrow please be kind...
wahahha..
No lar not guinea pig ah...
is food ambassadors...
hahaha!

I shall take a photo tomorrow.
wheeeee...
it seriously look like a log lor...

AHHHH!!
and i'm suppose to wake up at 830am tomorrow..
to work..
hahah..
its been so long since i had a proper job..
and i can't be late... how?
Its alr 4am....

I wish you were here
I miss you, baby.
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