i shan't blog about halloween last night.
it is basically.
happening, eventful, frightening, tiring.

i'm just feeling super fucked up now.
i really hate people who assume things.
i hate people who don't know anything then anyhow think, anyhow say.
you can blame me for hiding things.
but why i want to hide?
because whenever i tell you, you spread around.
not only that.
when i tell you things, you only know how to disagree.
and you don't even talk reasonably.
i'm someone who i don't like to say things.
but you're someone who say everything.
how do you expect me to tell you.
i definitely know that i am in the wrong in certain ways and reaction.
but i'm reacting like this because of the way you respond.
i'm so pissed yet i'm so sad.
i'm so sad because i was so pissed but yet i refused to argue/quarrel with you.
but you continued saying saying and saying.
and the things i go through since young, you'll never understand.
i never blame anyone. because this is my life.
the only thing i can do is to look forward.
and i will strive hard to prove all of you wrong.

there's so many things i wished i could say.
but i cannot.
maybe if one fine day when i really cannot tolerate, i will burst out everything and throw you back with all the questions?

but at the end of the day, i'll only be blamed.
nobody will say is your fault.
people will only say is my fault.
so why do i bother saying out?

Friends come and go but not many can last. It is definitely an important part of our life. We spend all our life with friends and some spend half of their life seeking true friendship. Some may not even be able to find one. And many do not know the significance of it.

To say, man and woman are like mars VS venus.

What about man and man, woman and woman?

To think about it, how many of your friends can you accept if they have different values and perspective of you?

Does it mean that you must not only accept but agree with all that your friend does even if its wrong?

Or does it mean that you musn't agree with your friend when they are wrong?

Does it mean that a friend should be treated like how he/she wants to be treated?

Or does it mean that a friend should be treated like we want them to treat us?

How important is it that if one talks about trust and loyalty?

To me, it is important. But people have different difinition for it. Trust will only exist when it is vice versa. Loyalty is not to stay loyal and side/cover up your friend forever.

A heart is more important.

My conscience are still clear.

Ultimately, who is the cause for all this?

No matter how much I did not agree with your actions, I still accepted it. But have you ever heed my advise? You call it trust towards a friend?

grrrrrrr ...
Been throwing out since sunday ...
its soooo bad..
and I'm still feeling nauseous now...
I want raisins!!!!

no.. i don't like sour plum ..
hahaha

I want to stop blogging...
I want to scream ....
/AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH