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I am crazily doing stupid stuff. I have high pitch laughter. I can cry in 10sec. I have a man character.



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Tuesday, November 17, 200904:52
I've removed my links column.
i'm sorry.
But i think its a hassle.

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walking home
04:30
its been some time since i blog anyway..
think the past few posts all very emo..
i shall stop posting emo stuffs.
hahahaha!

hmm, recently i found a new hobby.
I walked home from bugis the other day.
and walked back from outram just now.
it feels really good to walk home.
hahaha!
i haven't been really spending on transport for your info. wahahaha!
I spent 1 hour from bugis.. then as i walk, i just talked on phone.
the thing is, i had very good sleep that night.
I believe the same to day for the half an hour walk.
as i walked home, i thought alot.
so i was emo-ing about some stuffs and i reached home.
hmm, but there a great sense of satisfaction after i walk though.

shifting to bukit merah is so right.
I become more healthy because i always walk.
I'll slim down because there is nothing to munch at night.
and i tend to drink milk everyday because of the convenience.
I drink lots of water here too.

at home, i seldom drink water and exercise because i have all sorts of entertainment.
i saw a documentary the other day saying that watching tv will gain weight.
which i think its true..
i have cable tv at home.
so i'll watch whole day and don't even walk 100steps a day.
i will lie there and watch till morning?
then i'll tend to grab stuff to munch.
if not i'll cook instant noodles.
its not like i can't cook here.
but its just more troublesome because we're using stove in this house.
whereas at my house, we use induction cooker.
which means, i take only 3 mins to cook my instant noodles.
here, i probably take 10mins or more. because the water take very long to boil.
another thing is that i'm so super lazy to wash..
(i can throw at basin and let my mother wash at home.. oops)
wahhahaha

which means i should stay here for good.
because i'll become healthier here.
whahaha!

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一个不堪回首的过去
Saturday, November 14, 200912:37
Before i reached here, I thought i have a lot of thoughts that i really wished to post up.
But the moment i reached here, all my thoughts are gone.

I guess i'm just someone i don't like to share my feelings and i just didn't wanna face most reality. and for the past 2 years, i tried so hard, done my part to leave. I succeeded physically, but whats in my heart? i never dared to face it probably till last night? i always say its a silly, dumb, stupid to have thoughts like this. and apparently, i just don't wanna admit that i'm that dumb. i always thought i am strong and i can control my feelings. indeed, i can. Mind over heart. I try not to feel sad or feel hurt or rather have any special feelings towards you. i did that for the whole 2 years. I damn good right. but i can't deny the fact that i still miss you. only my pillow knows what happen every night? only my blanket knows where the tears goes?

after today, i know everything have to be back to normal. back to days before yesterday. and everything should officially end. no matter how much i don't wish to say, your decision is still right.

afterall, i don't regret all the decisions i made be it 2 years back, yesterday or now.
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life and death
Friday, November 06, 200909:41
"Death rates from cancer continue to decrease because of prevention, early detection and treatment," Jemal added. "These have been decreasing from the early '90s and, really, because of this decrease, over half a million deaths from cancer have been avoided."
Jemal is first author ofCancer Statistics 2008, which is published in the March/April issue ofCA: A Cancer Journal for Clinicians. The report has been an annual fixture since 1952.

everybody understands this simple word - prevention. but how many of you really maintain a healthy lifestyle?
but, in this urban city, how healthy can you be?

most people slogged their life for money. what is money when theres no health?

why is it that people in ancient times, people live to few hundred years? and now, the most 80years. i'm trying to say Earth is deteriorating and likewise for us who lives on it. and it'll continue to deteriorate. what if after another 5decade, human being can only live till 40years old. then you can imagine even faster pace life. and people would probably only sleep 4hours a day for more time.

a millionaire with a psle cert, took over his dad fail business, carrying the will of fulfill his dad wishes. he went all out. as a boss of a spa and wellness company - Aspara, he took charge of all big and small things. he then gradually put all his life in it. with all his hard work and never give up attitude, he succeeded and Aspara is well known worlwide - japan and america are one of the most wellknown. after slogging all his life, being so successful and reputable, he is now diagnosed with 3rd stage lung cancer and left with the last 1year. the cancer cells already started to spread at this point of time. and he wasn't even aware of it. there is no physical syntoms for cancer. how scary. and it is already the third stage. HE IS MY UNCLE.

My grandmother died of skin cancer and kidney failure but she was 88years old.

another uncle of mine died of cancer too but at the age off 40 odds?

one died of diabetes and kidney failure in 40odds as well.

come on, cancer, diabetes, high blood pressure, kidney failure has already become as common as catching flu.

and i'm urging you all young people to take prevention NOW!

wait, now. alot of people don't know how.

no greasy and fried food. more veges, more fruits.

drink more milk to take in more calcium.

exercise 3 times a week.

sleep 8hours a day.

drink lots of water. try to drink tap water because too much of distilled water is bad for your body.

this is the basic. consistency is what that matters.

i know you'll be asking me things like "you sure you can do it?"
no, i can't do it.

there are always other ways to make it easier in this modern city if you don't mind spending $0.20 a day to maintain your health!

or you rather fall sick first the pay your huge medical bills with medisave or some people will tell me they have lots of cash. then perhaps you must be someone who love to take pills alot and love to visit hospital often.

i'm sure you know what i mean. but apparently people don't do anything about it. so what are you waiting for?
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is to succeed
Wednesday, November 04, 200923:09
to succeed is to believe and desire.
i thought i knew it long ago.
well, apparently i'm still contemplating.
that's why i am procrastinating.

i know that you can do well in every market.
its the matter of how well you do.
and what is your desire for it.

and i've decided to give myself at least 3 months to see how far i can go.
without any source of support but i'm gonna do it.

like i say, how well do you know before experiencing yourself?
every environment is different because person's character differ.
and you cannot be so unfair to people.

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又到深夜
03:02
每当一到深夜,我就会睡不着。 我种会觉得很愤怒、很难过。 但是我无发把它说出来。 只能躲在被窝里哭泣。 有时候,我真的很想逃避和放弃一切。 但是我却不甘心。 不甘心就这样放弃一切。 所以不管多辛苦,我都会坚持到底。 我也只能靠自己!

子瑞,你要加油! (((:
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i am learning not to be too emotional
Sunday, November 01, 200922:28
i shan't blog about halloween last night.
it is basically.
happening, eventful, frightening, tiring.

i'm just feeling super fucked up now.
i really hate people who assume things.
i hate people who don't know anything then anyhow think, anyhow say.
you can blame me for hiding things.
but why i want to hide?
because whenever i tell you, you spread around.
not only that.
when i tell you things, you only know how to disagree.
and you don't even talk reasonably.
i'm someone who i don't like to say things.
but you're someone who say everything.
how do you expect me to tell you.
i definitely know that i am in the wrong in certain ways and reaction.
but i'm reacting like this because of the way you respond.
i'm so pissed yet i'm so sad.
i'm so sad because i was so pissed but yet i refused to argue/quarrel with you.
but you continued saying saying and saying.
and the things i go through since young, you'll never understand.
i never blame anyone. because this is my life.
the only thing i can do is to look forward.
and i will strive hard to prove all of you wrong.

there's so many things i wished i could say.
but i cannot.
maybe if one fine day when i really cannot tolerate, i will burst out everything and throw you back with all the questions?

but at the end of the day, i'll only be blamed.
nobody will say is your fault.
people will only say is my fault.
so why do i bother saying out?

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