SHYRLYN :D
I am crazily doing stupid stuff.
I have high pitch laughter.
I can cry in 10sec.
I have a man character.
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When everything is fine, I worry about what's next hoping that it comes later
Sunday, April 25, 201006:08
Start to think that I'm super boliao because I always blog at such time and I am at home but still posting via phone. How retarded.
I totally understand the fact that being nice wouldn't change things much because people will just take it for granted ultimately. I'm also clear that if I don't say a thing, nobody will know what I'm think. But the fact is that, under some circumstances, you know its hard to express them. And what if people disagree with you? What if people start blaming you for that? Ya, then you need to explain. But most of the time explaining will just make things worse. And therefore I choose to remain silence. Then after some time, I surely will feel like shit because I suppressed everything and all the anger accumulated. Better don't ask me drink because I think if I get drunk, I probably cannot control my anger. That makes me recall of someone else. Perhaps this is the reason why things happened that way (I shan't elaborate) is it like karma? Because I treated someone else like that then I meet someone like what I was? Maybe I need to do self reflection again... So, when I cry everything out, I feel better. And when everything is right now. I am really happy. And I hope I stay here forever because I know I'm not and I'm gonna start worrying and waiting for the next thing to come. All I can do is to avoid and ignore. Nothing else. Please don't try me too hard. Because I can't take it. I don't have take kind of energy anymore. Sent from my BlackBerry Wireless Handheld from M1. |
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Constructive critics not
Saturday, April 17, 201005:58
I'm like lying on my bed and can't sleep again. Well, I just thought of some stuff that normal people should get defensive or even pissed.
Its about how you react towards criticism. I always believe that people are different, their environment being brought up, things they like and many other factors. In music, there are so many kinds of different genre and applies to people too. Therefore, different character, different interest makes different song. The point is, I never think I'm good at anything because I know there are so many people out there that are better. So, I'm always open to criticisms to help myself improve. Be it if it is constructive or not. Because the public sees you. You can have 1001 excuses saying or thinking that you know more those who criticise. But you can never deny the fact that you need these people to define whether you are good or not. Even if they are not as good as you, you still need them. You need them to agree that you are good. Therefore no matter what people say, it is a need to reflect and try to improve. But not getting affected by them, start being emo and stuff. Don't waste time emo-ing because you ought to meet people like this everywhere. Even if people doesn't support you, as long as you know what you want. People who put you down are people who mould you to become better. They are better than your teacher and they are greater credits to your future. People succeed because they look at things in different perspective. They accept comments openly. They are magnanimous. They are open to changes. They are flexible. And most importantly, they are not complacent after they achieve their goal. I know people always say that don't take uncontructive critics seriously. But to me, if there is still that one person who says that you are not good, then you are not the best. If you are not the best, then you still need to improve because there is room for improvement. I'm not saying I want to be the best. I just want to emphasise that one should never stop having the desire to improve. Sounds really competitive but you need motivation like this to strive better lest you will remain stagnant. And I got a feeling I gonna reach my bottleneck again.... |
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当你爱一个人时，自己也不知道为什么
Friday, April 16, 201000:39
有时会觉得心酸因为知道自己的地位在那里。只想经心经历做好自己的本分。只想付出，不求回报。完全不知道自己那来的这些耐心，这些力量。完全不知道为什么会
可能人会比较珍惜那些得不到的东西。 Sent from my BlackBerry Wireless Handheld from M1. |
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Just random thoughts
Wednesday, April 14, 201015:36
would you rather know the truth and get hurt or would you rather being cheated and be happy?
this has never been an definite answer before. because when one gets hurt, one would rather not know anything but when one gets cheated, one would rather know the truth. it has also became quite habitual that i don't deliberately find out the truth. what do you gain from knowing more? sometimes i do feel stupid for thinking this way. but being too smart won't lead to happiness. and therefore i tend to feign ignorance even when i know the truth. and to do that, i normally turn to excuses instead of finding out. then again, not many people are able to do it. you can only accept the kind of society you live in. this is want you have then accept it and live with it. don't blame anyone or take things for granted. because no matter how you blame the person, you cannot change things. but when you take things for granted, you'll eventually lose it. this is life. life is practical, life is realistic. Sent from my BlackBerry Wireless Handheld from M1. |
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this would seriously be a short post
Saturday, April 10, 201004:12
just wanted to blog for the momentum. Since I haven't been blogging for like long long time. Well, I've dl-ed the new app on BB.. as you can see below.. so, I can blog with my berry now! hmm, please note that berry also can whatsapp! so I'm on whatsapp! who say only apple can? hahahaha! Ok, I'm just back from vocals today after that mac.. and played murderer till frigging 230am~ sounds retarded.. But its fun! because you totally can see the way people react. who is the higher EQ ones. Who play mind games better. and I really feel like saying.. I don't know what else can I do .and I hate this feeling!!!! I will do everything I can for your sake. I don't know how long this can last.. I am going crazy ok!!!! |
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testing my new app!
Friday, April 09, 201016:43
this is sent by alicia from harbour front when it is raining heavily at tanjong pagar just now. that piece of cloud only covered that area which is where tanjong pagar is. and point is, its totally not raining at harbour front! hahahaha! Sent from my BlackBerry Wireless Handheld from M1. |
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I love my boyf
Thursday, April 08, 201003:19
Relationship is a state of connectedness between people involving mutual dealings. Therefore, it is a commitment that needs to be maintained. My friend came to my place the other day because she had a tiff with her boyf. The usual things girls do, she complained about him. and then I agree with her and so on. But as she was sharing, I was reminded of my own relationship. And I really appreciate her because I was reminded that I should be contented with what I have and cherish them. We all know this but who actually does that. I'm sorry friend, cause she's like so sad but I felt fortunate at that time. I started to think about my relationship and I thought this is what I have and I can only maintain it and improve it with my strength because I believe, when you are sincere, others can feel it. Be it relationship with boyf, family and/or friends. So the thing is, relationship is mutual. You need to trust, believe and support what the other party do. Even if you don't understand his/her actions, you need to trust that everything they do has reasons behind it. I realised that it is rather difficult to express your feelings totally to the other party. Therefore, a lot of people experience in communication barriers. So how? when a couple is lack of communication? Then it need to be build on trust, understanding and mutual feelings. Every individual is different. They got different upbringing, grow up in different environments, different life experiences and many more other factors. Hence, when you meet a new person, you need to learn him/her in a new way no matter how experience you were. As I grow older, I realised I don't really like to share my stuff especially emotions. It has become natural part of me to hide my feelings. And a lot of times, I have uncertainties but I choose not to clarify. Because I believe ignorant is a bliss. I refused to know the ugly truth because the truth always don't result good. So I had people asking me, "so you rather people lie to you?" Actually, to a certain extent yes. If truth hurts, I rather live in ignorant because I'll be happier this way. But after going through so much in life, I can already accept almost anything. Just that I'm too tired to care much. I came a long way and I know I don't need some sweet romantic relationship because I'm am too tired to do that kind of stupid stuff that I did when I was young. I have no energy to quarrel as well. I only want a peaceful and dependable relationship. No need a lot of ups and downs. No need a lot of interesting stuff. As long as I feel comfortable. Somebody told me, I'm not that kind of girl that my boyf would like. I know. hahaha! But many a times, reality is always what you think you want it to be. I have friends who got stumbled as well. Came to ask me why choose him? ok, not that he's not good. Just that, he's not that kind of guy I will like. But I'm still very sure he is what I want. When I start to recall back the times when we just get to know each other, I think we were so much happier. Its always the best time when you don't understand the person well. We seem to reach the bottleneck and don't really know how to communicate with each other after some time. I'm trying my best to understand you more. Seriously, I don't really care what people tell me. Even though sometimes, I get really disappointed by your actions but I still choose to believe in you and thats why I didn't probe much about your stuff. I'm sorry for the things I did that annoyed you which I may not know and I really appreciate you for all these while that you're here. Thank you Baby, I love you. Labels: appreciation, love |
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