My friend came to my place the other day because she had a tiff with her boyf. The usual things girls do, she complained about him. and then I agree with her and so on.

But as she was sharing, I was reminded of my own relationship. And I really appreciate her because I was reminded that I should be contented with what I have and cherish them. We all know this but who actually does that.

I'm sorry friend, cause she's like so sad but I felt fortunate at that time. I started to think about my relationship and I thought this is what I have and I can only maintain it and improve it with my strength because I believe, when you are sincere, others can feel it. Be it relationship with boyf, family and/or friends.

So the thing is, relationship is mutual. You need to trust, believe and support what the other party do. Even if you don't understand his/her actions, you need to trust that everything they do has reasons behind it. I realised that it is rather difficult to express your feelings totally to the other party. Therefore, a lot of people experience in communication barriers.

So how? when a couple is lack of communication? Then it need to be build on trust, understanding and mutual feelings. Every individual is different. They got different upbringing, grow up in different environments, different life experiences and many more other factors. Hence, when you meet a new person, you need to learn him/her in a new way no matter how experience you were.

As I grow older, I realised I don't really like to share my stuff especially emotions. It has become natural part of me to hide my feelings. And a lot of times, I have uncertainties but I choose not to clarify. Because I believe ignorant is a bliss. I refused to know the ugly truth because the truth always don't result good. So I had people asking me, "so you rather people lie to you?" Actually, to a certain extent yes. If truth hurts, I rather live in ignorant because I'll be happier this way. But after going through so much in life, I can already accept almost anything. Just that I'm too tired to care much.

I came a long way and I know I don't need some sweet romantic relationship because I'm am too tired to do that kind of stupid stuff that I did when I was young. I have no energy to quarrel as well. I only want a peaceful and dependable relationship. No need a lot of ups and downs. No need a lot of interesting stuff. As long as I feel comfortable.

Somebody told me, I'm not that kind of girl that my boyf would like. I know. hahaha! But many a times, reality is always what you think you want it to be. I have friends who got stumbled as well. Came to ask me why choose him? ok, not that he's not good. Just that, he's not that kind of guy I will like. But I'm still very sure he is what I want.

When I start to recall back the times when we just get to know each other, I think we were so much happier. Its always the best time when you don't understand the person well. We seem to reach the bottleneck and don't really know how to communicate with each other after some time. I'm trying my best to understand you more. Seriously, I don't really care what people tell me. Even though sometimes, I get really disappointed by your actions but I still choose to believe in you and thats why I didn't probe much about your stuff.

I'm sorry for the things I did that annoyed you which I may not know and I really appreciate you for all these while that you're here.

Thank you Baby, I love you.