Seems like I haven't been blogging for some time.. Apparently I'm really like busy but not really.. And, ya.. I don't quite like blogging when I'm in my good days....

I'm very happy because I haven't been feeling sad... Hahaha.. Whatever.. Crap... Ok, its because bad times are over... And you can't imagine how happy I am because I went through shits months ago for a few months.. But it made me stronger. And I always believe things happen for a reason and I know its to prepare myself for times like now.. To understand myself and being able to work harder.. And I said previously, I need new circle of friends.. So I'm in a new environment now facing different people.. And it feels great.. I just have to appreciate those people that let me down because they are my greatest teacher.. I learn so many things there that they don't. And accepting life like never before..

So what worse can I face after this? This is what I learn.. I can't be any worse than this.. So when you are down, ask yourself, what can be worse than this? Or have you already been through something worse? Then stop dwelling in that part.. You only need to go through it once.. Downfall is a reminder that you musn't take life for granted.. it is how you understand the true meaning of life..

And what is after downfall? You'll surely achieve something right? Yes, I believe for most at least for myself. But the best part is, everytime during good times, I start to think negative. I start to fear about the next downfall.. Because my life wave has always been the extreme ups and downs.. So my next lesson is to learn how to not focus on negative part and yet not focusing on the results itself. How should you enjoy the process of achievement is another story.. hhahaha..

I wanna share a little more about bottleneck instead. This has been what I always been thinking. Because a lot of people can handle failure or rather they know what to do just that they don't want. I gather that reaching a bottleneck in the things you do is always the hardest thing to breakthrough. Because you are neither here nor there. Like I said, when you are very sad, most people know how to go through it. But reaching bottleneck is a lesson I learnt recently reflecting on how I jump out of it. And, I gather that its a part and parcel of life but its hard. Because you just have no idea what went wrong since you alr follow closely to all that you should do.

You need to understand that reaching bottleneck is like standing right beside a tall wall. So you won't be able to see anything across it. That is when people try too hard to climb up to see what is across it. They keep falling because they are just climbing blatantly. If you step backwards or move further behind, you'll probably see something more and the way to cross.. I'm not sure if you understand my illustration but what I'm trying to drive is that when you reach your bottleneck, don't try too hard to improve or achieve what you wanted. Take a break, relax and think back. Or move back even if it takes you to do it all over again. You need to understand that sometimes when you're moving too fast, you'll miss out some things. And in this case - life, there are probably something you fail to understand in this process.. Moving fast is good but, true understanding is more important. Its better to know the purpose before you do something..

Lastly, life is not only about career, money, relationships and etc.. If you want to succeed in life, you need to bear the correct mindset, adopt the correct character and values. Because you'll only succeed well with the right beliefs.... Be wise as the serpent but harmless as the doves..

Woooh.... A lot of reflections during better times... Right, this is good.. I'm on the right track... Hahahaha.. I hope I shared something great for you too.. Because I normally share inspiring stuff to motivate myself and also reminding myself in down times... Just like how I read through all posts from the past years. Hahhaa..
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