Start to think that I'm super boliao because I always blog at such time and I am at home but still posting via phone. How retarded.

I totally understand the fact that being nice wouldn't change things much because people will just take it for granted ultimately. I'm also clear that if I don't say a thing, nobody will know what I'm think. But the fact is that, under some circumstances, you know its hard to express them. And what if people disagree with you? What if people start blaming you for that? Ya, then you need to explain. But most of the time explaining will just make things worse. And therefore I choose to remain silence.

Then after some time, I surely will feel like shit because I suppressed everything and all the anger accumulated. Better don't ask me drink because I think if I get drunk, I probably cannot control my anger. That makes me recall of someone else. Perhaps this is the reason why things happened that way (I shan't elaborate) is it like karma? Because I treated someone else like that then I meet someone like what I was?

Maybe I need to do self reflection again...

So, when I cry everything out, I feel better. And when everything is right now. I am really happy. And I hope I stay here forever because I know I'm not and I'm gonna start worrying and waiting for the next thing to come.

All I can do is to avoid and ignore. Nothing else. Please don't try me too hard. Because I can't take it. I don't have take kind of energy anymore.


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