放弃是懦夫所为
我没想过放弃
只是我完全找不到推动力
而我也不知道从何时失去了这份热忱
这份热爱唱歌的热忱
我不想参加比赛

其实自从我决定离开他前，我已经知道会有这一天
我知道一切会便
当身边的人看到这些变化，当然就会觉得我便很多
从始至中我都没有对我做的决定后悔过
最多只是觉得亏欠他吧
但至少我现在比较轻松，比较快了
不会像以前好想让很多东西限制一样

可能你们会觉得我便很多
甚至是变坏
但我只想说你们认识我那段时间是我改过自新的时候
即使我怎样告诉你们我在那时之前是怎样的，你们也不会了解
我经历过的挫折和点点滴滴
是你们永远都不会体会到的
我不想用这个来做借口
我也不想显得很自我

I totally understand all your kind intentions
but i seriously find it fake because you all only say it when somebody older initiate.
and weird because if you don't agree with me from the beginning,
why didn't you mention it earlier
and make it seemed like you all are so ok with it?
my change is not a just thing.
didn't it happened long ago.
or rather few months back?
I appreciate the things you guys say and really wanting me to change.
but seriously, I have toned down alot.
I don't see why you guys didn't say a thing
when I club and drink almost every night
and only say it now?
and yes, if you knew I smoke long ago, why didn't you say on the spot.
yes, comparing to you all, I'm bad, rebellious 0r
whatsoever.
comparing myself now from the past.
I'm normal.

afterall you all just like to make remark without understanding the whole picture.
and for that person who actually understand most of the picture.
I'm so disappointed in you.

Lastly, I want to emphasize
I'm not posting this because I'm angry of the things you all say.
Its why people follow crowd.
Its why wait until now?

Moreover, my change may be drastic to you guys
because you have not seen the real me.
there is alot of thing you guys can debate with me
like, why was i able to change for the better that time
but I don't wish to explain stuffs from other realm to you guys.
because you have to experience it before you understand it.

Afterall, I'm happy whith what I have now and I'm contented