I was just reading some past mails ...
I find it so amazing. I actually did a lot of amazing things.
For friends, for God, for cg, for Church.

Well, I alone cannot do all that. But He's the one who transformed and made me me.
I asked myself on my way home today, what is the greatest thing that will make you regret in life?
I thought and I knew. I still thought of giving up.
But sometimes, when some things reached the extreme you rather regret than doing something now?
I ask myself, what are my priorities . I can't answer myself. I used to have many priorities and I really work hard for them but now, I don't feel like doing anything ... Maybe its because the more you rest, the more restless you get?

Yeah, I used to do a lot of things
used to share a lot of things
used to be very positive
used to write a lot of inspirational post
but now ...
So many things had happened ..
and there's so many things that others cannot understand.
Precisely, others don't understand. So they find choices for me without even asking me.
I seriously don't find a problem so why do i have make a decision? Its always been this way. So why find reasons for me? i find it so hard to agree with you in any way and every time.

Well, most of the time people have different point of views. But yeah, I really don't understand your insistent. Its illogical, its unreasonable. It doesn't even matter about who has time. Why make me walk all the way there and walk back? Afterall i'm still going home... you're right, what's the difference? and then everybody know, only me.

How ironic ... I just posted a few post ago, why is my best friend my best friend.
Seriously, my definition of best friends shouldn't be that superficial.
This is like the worse thing i ever want to write and want to post.
But then again, I wouldn't share any thing with you.
ok, its not just you.
But sorry...

ok, I know I always look very excited.. hahahah!
I'm not emo ok ..

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