Just quit explaining.

because the left brain wont understand the right brain.

right brain just can't help it to feel this way.

and nothing is explainable.

left brain will never understand.

and the reaction will forever be wrong.

The more I try to avoid quarrels, the more it comes looking for me.

I shall just shut up and keep quiet till I snap.

whatever~

what a retarded thing to feel unhappy about!

bye 2010 hi 2011

Today, is kinda long day.

Woke up early morning, as he head to work, me returning home to remind my mum of myself. I think she has forgotten her daughter because as usual, I'm always so occupied by my own stuff. Worse still, I think I'm really exhausted due to the previous job. Physically and mentally straining because I have to keep reminding myself to stay really strong and keep the drive going until it dies. And you know when anything start to deteriorate, you need to do something about it to not let it worsen. I thought I was so super strong, wonder woman, fly here fly there could take all these but I realised, I needed to break long ago. You can't just keep pushing yourself.

- yup, this realisation came to me after the interview this morning.

after interview, went back home again for lunch and laze around till evening and I head over to boon lay to meet my gf and my son!!! wahahaha... I had a great time playing him and with him. He kept smiling at my high pitch annoying noises. no, actually I kept talking to him in his language! hehehe!

At night, head to OB, meet the 3bbbold2+1appleiphone3g...

eat chill and talk cock. When we were leaving, we even craped for 30mins outside cine..

how REEEEEtarded.. hahahha

ok, but its great meeting them.

and back home. my home.

Packed abit of stuff because tomorrow or rather today is friday and I won't be coming home till monday morn.

and then, browse abit of net and read a few emo blogs.

I just feel that, life is more than just love, marriage, money and work.

I got to agree that they are the prime things people look at and vex about.

I seriously have to admit that I'm in this category of love money work too.

Certain group of friends, can only play. Certain group of them can talk. Certain group of friend can talk and relate. Certain group of friend can talk can relate and respected.

I really want to give up talking about this but I guess, I can't change. I'm just more concern about friends and I'm not that kind of person that can "let them be" "mind my own business"... To me, as a friend, even if I know you don't like to listen, I still have to say my piece even when you long already understood this, even you have made your decisions clear. But rest assured, you still have my blessings. I'm not thinking that it cannot work out for you guys. However, as a friend, I respected you due to your passion, your drive and the amount of hardwork you commit in your career. I know how tough is your work already. It'll just be another challenging task for you to bear.. which i think its something worth if its really something you want but you really don't have to do that. Plenty of alternatives but no idea why you taking the hardest way.

I'm blogging because its a happy day.

because TGIF.

I can't wait I can't wait to see my Apple..

so retarded like the apple!

and im so annoying like orange

hey! hey apple!

HAHAHAHAHA!

but now, I need food.

:(:(:(:(:(

I haven't been thinking much these days. I think I quite sick of the busy life or rather keeping myself busy life. I know I need to move to find motivation and desire to do anything. But it has come to a point that I just feel like not moving. I just feel like staying here and enjoy being taken care of and not care about anything. Don't think of money. Its not the first time that bad things happen to me. In fact, it happen all the time and I'm already used to it especially when it comes to friend(s). So, actually I'm not really feeling anything. So much that I wanted to express my frustrations, my left brain tells me there's nothing I can express. Scold, I also don't know what to scold. Its more like a norm actually. I should have expected long ago because it always happen. Not that I think highly of myself, but I refuse to think that the problem lies with me . I can only say people has different points of view and I can't expect people to appreciate me. However, I am still gonna change because its time I wake up my idea and (don't have to choose friends wisely) just protect yourself from from your own interest. Its so not me but I don't have a choice because (i just told Sam just now) "its not about what you want in life, its about how you accept and face reality." Desire will not bring you anywhere if you can't be realistic in facing the ugly world. I'm not being pessimistic about life, I will still strive in whatever I want but I just want to emphasize you cannot depend on anyone to see and hear for you. You need to open your eyes yourself and be cautious to protect your own interest.

Its been some time that I reflect on myself because I was too incautious. I thought everything was ok when the reality hit me. However, I'd like to appreciate that person because it really made me learn and open my eyes BIG. A lot of things happen unknowingly and when it happen, you think people will really be there for you? Look at fb, that how many friends will be there kind of bullshit. Come on, open your mouth and say Money. See who will be there? I was the naive one that always pay and lend people money. I just can't help it but to keep sympathizing with people. All the upright values that I had, I think its gone. I know speaking like this, I'll call this superficial in the past. But, you can't deny that this is fact.

At the end of the day, it still comes back to balance. How you balance the beautiful and ugly world.

I shall continue the next time when I'm feel like it. yep, short post.

hahahaha!