I'll probably only blog more often this month because apparently I can't sleep.

I really don't wanna keep posting this but, I always miss the spoilt boy at such timing because nothing occupy me.

Nevertheless, I think its a good thing that we are being separated for awhile. Its a short break, at the same time a challenge. To test our relationship. An essay consist of introduction, contents and conclusion. But a story not only need these. The writer has to present in such a way that it is detail but not too draggy, interesting and catchy. But the most important point is the writer needs to manage well when to stop and go to the next paragraph.

And I'll try my best to be a good writer this time.
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i just read my previous few posts... and... omg!!! did i post that? hahahha! yes i did when i was on the verge of sleeping and dozing off.. Now I believe when one is tired, they really will do things that they normally don't do. hahahah! ok, no doubt that, its still the truth. I was abit shock that i actually write such things... like after a while you feel like laughing.. hahahah! but i realised blogging is one of the way to fall asleep? at least its better than counting sheep. hahaha!

Apparently, I can't sleep again. I'm getting more and more lazy. Hahaha!

Its just the forth day when he's away. And I feel damn lethargic and reluctant everyday. I don't feel like going out, don't feel like doing anything. And I'm always in a daze. My friends would ask me why I look so sad but I'm only dazing. I wasn't thinking of anything and I'm not very sad. I know I posted a lot of emo status on fb but actually I'm not emo. I just feel very stone. As in, probably because I had nothing to expect for everyday. Or maybe deep inside, I am?

I do admit I seriously miss him but I never worry about anything (because my friend thought I would worry if he anyhow). Its just purely miss and sometimes thinking of what he's doing. That's all. And out of a sudden I miss our bickerings. I miss him doing stupid stuff. I miss him demanding me to do things for him. I miss carrying things for him. I miss him suaning me.

Although, sometimes I do feel that its probably quite one sided. And couldn't really tell what's he thinking. I probably mean differently from how he mean to me. 但是，我還是不由自主的想去繼續愛他。I don't need to be the priority. I just need certain amount of the heart...


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Ahhhh, omg. Somebody please help me... This is the worst month! Days past so slowly and I totally have no means to contact my spoilt boy. And its only the second day. ))))):

This feeling is like shit when I totally have no idea what he is doing.. Is he enjoying? Or having a hard time? Of course I hope he's having a good time! Everyday, so sleepy. But I can't sleep! I feel like a zombie, so dead, so stone! So lethargic, so reluctant...

I miss you, baby!!!

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