after so long i'm back here just to complain.

I'm a girl. so i'm petty.
I bear grudges. I remember little things you do.
I remember bad things more than good things.
I can choose to forget.
but apparently, i chose to remember.
because i feel so fucked up that i couldn't sleep last night!

i'm not here to explain myself.
because i've decided not to be over familiar with you.
after all, i can't call you a friend.
so, you can just think what you want to think.
just assume whatever it is.
I don't care what others think.
I only care what my friends think.
call me stubborn.
call me childish.
call me willful

but i really hate people like you.
so what if other people respect you?
I don't!
because you're fickle? can i say that?
but, i just can't figure out what kind of person you are.
sometimes you are like this. sometimes you are like that.

so what if i want to take the longer route?
people take different means to grow and learn.
i live once and i do whatever i want.
i don't care what the rule is.
what kind of standard life people go through.
i don't believe in structure and formula in life.
if you take other people as example,
i will only say thank goodness my parents don't plan for my life.
and give me freedom to do whatever i want.
at least i think i'm happier than other people's planned life.
even if i meet alot of obstacles,
i can blame no one but only be strong.

you took someone who is totally different from me to compare.
and that explains why we react differently from things.
at least i love my family and appreciate them.
at least they support me in whatever i want to do.
at least i don't blame them about anything they do.
even if i really don't like it.
and this is the greatest happiness to me.
[if i offended you, then i'm sorry.
blame him for taking you as example.
i'm just stating facts.]

lets just remain our relationship like before and don't cross the line.
even if what i think about you is wrong, so be it.
and so be it if what you think about me is wrong.
because i don't give a damn.