If you don't know, I sleep with lamp.

I cannot sleep in darkness.
But that lamp sometimes make me don't feel like shutting my eyes.
So last night, I turned off the lamp and slept in darkness.

I was tired, my eyes were shut, but i still couldn't sleep.
for a moment, a lot of things came into my mind again.
all the negative thoughts.
the same old feeling.
the same old thoughts.
rapid heartbeat.
tears that you don't know why.

Each time, when I have a little motivation,
the same feeling will come back.

I thought it was only exam stress.
But in my heart, I know its not just that.

I really don't wish to post this but its just a little of my deepest thoughts.
you won't know how terrible it feels.

Every time I pass by a busy road,
every time i pass by a high rise building,
every time it rain heavily,
every time i cut onions in the kitchen,
every time when there is a sudden wind blow,
every time when there is sudden loud bang,
... ... ... ...

I'm sorry, there's no way I can.