Homework just done halfway but don't intend to continue doing in. School reopen in hours time. I just got so upset suddenly.

Perhaps you just don't understand how much I like you. I don't know either. Why would I fall for a chauvinist? I really don't understand you. I know you have your reasons but you'll never explain why. You know what you want to know but you won't let others know what they want to know. Isn't it selfish of you? Some times I just feel there's no outcome between us. I realized we both started arguing for reasons. I want reasons whereas you don't explain. Isn't it like Mars and Venus? Indeed, it is. But you know what? I don't know why, I just like. I seriously think you are very mean to me but it's ok. I'll just take it. You won't know how much I hate to sigh no matter what happen but I sighed just because of what you say.

I won't decide what to do. You shall. =D

hahaha! I just love my mum man! I tell you, she's just soooooo cute. haha! I shared with her about me and that guy. You know what's her reaction? She ask me to wait for him. hahaha! That's so cute of her lar.

Met up with Kor,Daniel* and Derek* today. Went to had lunch at amk McDonald's. Kor* bought the guitar from Derek*. Kor* sent me to Lot 1 after that. On our way back, I had a very nice sleep on his shoulder! haha! End my CSO at 8pm today. Gosh! I thought I saw him at the library. haha! Thank God not him, that guy is quite short ar. haha!

I suddenly wonder, why did he get angry previously when I tried to give up? Why did he longed to know who I like? Why did he actually interest me then? Do I interest him? haha! so many whys. He don't seem to know, he don't seemed keen. haha.

Er. Is he acting blur or he really don't know. Come to sense please! Isn't it obvious my dear? haha!

I cannot handle relationship!

As usual CSO today. I was super late today as I've been consistently waking up early and turning in late. haha.

I went home after CSO. When I was coming out of the lift at Lot 1, the people outside is squeezing in. There's this teenager(darn kiasu, worse than auntie) squeezed in and a middle aged lady in front of me trying to go out of the lift and accidently knocked on the teenager. Then she start to "ze" the lasy. Please! It'a not even the lady's fault. Didn't she learn in primary school that the people outside the lifts should allow us, in the lift to go first? Serve her right!!! Haha!

Back to yesterday. Went for COMBAT at MCYS. Met Daniel* afterthat and chatted the whole day and he sent me back.

I'm so upset now. Stupid people tell me stupid things! The one you like is always a long distance away from you. The one you don't like is there to irritate you all the way. ARGH! why?! hahaha!

Suddenly realize I don't understand him at all. Also, just realized that he don't like to explain stuffs whereas I'm someone who you cannot leave without reasons and explainations. haha. nevermind uh, I'm still very young. Can slowly choose? hahaha.

We're like strangers?
How I wish I can stay out late, no curfew. I won't sigh. haha.

My week started with a boring day. CSO today and for the rest of the week till Saturday. This week will be a routine for me. Wake up, go library, arrange books, eat, arrange books, go home, play computer, eat and sleep. haha. I'm looking forward to Sunday. I'm pretty sure it'll end quite excitingly. I'm now listening to alot of songs. Trying to re-confirm about the songs I'll be sing for audition. The deadline is 20 June 07 but I haven't submit my application by today and still indecisive of the songs to sing. haha. Yea, I'm taking part in the battle of the voices singing competition if you're still not informed.

Char* came down to Lot 1 to have lunch with me or rather a treat as my birthday is TOMORROW! Knock yourself if you've forgotten about it. haha! We haven't meet up for quite some time. Kind of miss her crappy-ness, irritations and lame-ness. hahaha! She headed down for her job interview after that. And I'm back alone in the library again. Remember to wish me Happy Birthday. awww, I've got CSO tomorrow as well. Forget about all celebrations and if you have any plannings, drop that then. I don't think I have time either. I'll be happy if you guys have the intention. haha!

Back to yesterday. Went to church in the morning then make-up Cell Group Meeting later. It's just so good to listen to the word of God and dwelling in His presence. Oh ya, I really want to thank Seth*. Always accompanying for Sunday service, make-up cgm and always going the extra mile for God. A great man of God and bro in Christ. You are appreciated. (=

Went to Burger King after CGM for lunch at East Point. Slacked there until about 5+ and headed home. I think he also become TAOist. He bever reply me in MSN. hahaha!!!

Yeah! I'm finally done with my blog! Ha! I'm so tired now. After a long day at the library for CSO. I got to be there at 10am later as well.

Hmm, I went to Irene's* place to borrow clothes from her this morning as I was told that I was not with proper attire. I reached her place at about 10+ and I slacked till around 12 then I walk back to Lot 1. haha! Oh ya, I'm now doing my CSO at the Library in Lot 1 if you're still not told. Met Irene* for lunch later at 3 and went back to work till 1945! I'm darn tired and my leg is breaking! Thank God I'm not wearing heals. ha! Anyway, if you were to see me today, I think you will laugh at my dressing. wahahaha. Thank God, I didn't see anyone there.

Yea, so if you're free or near Lot 1, do drop by. We may have lunch together. I'll be there all the way until 23 June 2007 except for Sunday.

You know what, I'll be working on my birthday! OMG! Maybe you guys can come down Lot 1 to celebrate with me after 5pm? Haha.

Alright, I really got to turn in now. Goodnight. Goodnight Seth. I know you're reading it. hahaha!

I've finally finished my show. For those who know, I've been crazy over a Taiwan Drama, A GAME ABOUT LOVE 剪刀石头布. If you haven't watch it, do watch! It is a very nice show! haha!

Went for CSO today. It's just as bored there. I end up sitting there listening to songs and started to miss him. Instead, i started messaging Sam*. I just lose the courage as before when I will say what I want and do what I wish. I realized the older I get, I start to think more and worry more things which is good at some point.

Sometimes, I just envy my friends who can go for what they want. I admit I've been avoiding recently. I tried to deceive myself that I've fell for him and tried ways to tell myself it's ok, he's not mine. But today, I realized I cannot deceive myself anymore. So I decided to post as I really have no courage. Well, if he sees that may really be fate. ha! I don't know why, I just trust him so much. I'll believe whatever he say. Sometimes, I don't understand either. The things which I normally will think deeper, observe more but I realized I didn't observe anything. I even believed some things when I know is not true. Infact, I don't want to know how bad is he. In my eyes, he's just perfect. Though I know no one is perfect. The same thing happened 2 years ago when I fall for another guy. But this time, I chose to be rational. Or is it I just afraid of another rejection? Shall just let nature take it's cause. No matter where will he be going, I'll give him all my blessings. =)

Such a bored day at home today. Didn't go for my CSO again. It's been a week already. I'm just lazy to go. ha! Darn! I'm sick again. I'm having a terrible sore throat cough and runny nose. I have no voice to talk now. So don't call me today. ha! Shall continue watching tv ~

Yeah! My WDO finally ended. Yes it's saturday and I'm blogging here.


Attended emerge today. I'm really blessed God. Thank you Jesus! And hahaha! it's really a privilege to see Liu Geng Hong propose to her girlfriend, Vivi! So touching! God bless them. Congratulations! Didn't get to listen to the message though. I need to rush home. Shall look forward to tomorrow's service.